It’s Not About Punishing. It’s About Holding Us Spiritually and Morally Accountable

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I always had respect for other religions, as being raised in a strong Catholic background, thanks to my roots. One of the things that I got a lot of slack about from both sides of my family was when I told them that I was taking a Theology class while I was a sophomore in college. They all flipped out because of the one thing that all Catholics and other people who worship the Father All-Mighty. Which is it’s a sin to worship any other God than him. It Was partially my fault as I didn’t explain what the study of Theology is. Theology is the study of all sorts of religions—both ancient and modern, which is the study of Theology. The King James Version of the ancient text was considered current to my Theology Professor. Like this version, being revised from the original text was a new version of Christianity, modified based on the perception of what was understood in the old text, the first thing my professor followed within her lecture, which immediately followed by a disclaimer. “If you cannot take this class with an open mind, then you should disenroll out of the class. As this class will be offensive when we discuss the man-made texts that were adopted and inspired from one another.” Which is how I ended up becoming with the plot for the second book in “The Rideshare Chronicles Series – Highway to Hell.” As one lingering question that I led with the rest of the novels in the series, “How do we not know that somewhere in the Universe. All the Gods and Deities of the world are looking at us saying; What the fuck did we do in creating humankind?” In the series, all the gods have a coalition to help stop the protagonist from a more sinister and sadistic ancient evil trying to take the entire Universe to their version of Hell. Which if you want to know what that is. You have to wait till the final book is released.

So remember that rhetorical question that I asked you to ponder before the blog was posted. “What if God/Higher Power/Universe or whatever you believe is not punishing us with all these things that are occurring around the world. What if he’s holding humans accountable for the majority’s shitty human behavior for the bad and unethical actions we normalize and tolerate.” I won’t bore you with my complete theory, so let’s start with this fundamental reason why I strongly feel we are being held accountable for our shitty behavior. It is that we are told to treat others like we want to be treated. But we still can’t even master that. The truth is, in the act of insecurity. We irrationally lead with what makes us feel better. The selfishness that entitlement has sprung over the years as it’s a behavior that is normalized in our modern behavior. Insecurity makes us irrational and makes us do some shitty things, internalized pain and trauma that we have gone through throughout our lives. We protect ourselves to avoid becoming vulnerable, continuing to hurt others. Where if we establish boundaries and stay consistent with them, we will defend ourselves. But that insecurity instills fear of feeling the same way again. It makes us do all sorts of unethical, immoral actions because of one metaphor that is normalized and misinterpreted, which is “you have to think about yourself.” Which, of course, has some truth, but we tend to engage it in overabundance that, in the end, makes us, in turn, engage in one or extreme circumstances. Which in this reference, I will use Christianity, the Seven Deadly Sins. And in many cases breaking one of the Ten Commandments.

Lying is a sin. We already committed that in the act of lying to ourselves on the feelings that we have in our most vulnerable states, which I get as I constantly preach how the world isn’t fair, is true. But instead of standing up against it, we tend to stay quiet and put our heads down to avoid being the victim of another attack by someone who should have known better. Which blaming ourselves for the things we had no control over, which in this case. The action of other people. All for the sake of not being judged. But the thing that we tend to forget is that we all make mistakes, and that’s okay. I learned how to take accountability and love myself enough to own up to the mistakes that I made in the past. I had taught myself one thing after I got more confidence and bolder from in the face of passive-aggressive, self-righteous, entitled, and insecure individuals who try to shame me for my mistakes if I don’t know enough about them. Thanks to the confidence and humbled confidence. I learned how to shut those people up very quickly as also equipped with emotional intelligence. I can read between the lines in their demeanor. As thanks to psychology, certain behaviors and specific ways on how they use their defense mechanisms.

It's Not About Punishing. It's About Holding Us Spiritually and Morally Accountable

I can identify the past traumas that have occurred in their lives, how they react and respond. Which still having empathy, I try to be crystal clear on the boundaries they are crossing. But in superiority complex, which is thinking your above something. Which in my Theology class is equivalent to playing God, or as my professor called. “God Complex.” One thing that was also said to us is “that the only being who should have control of someone’s destiny is God and yourself.” Throwing someone under the bus and making them seem like the bad guy is manipulating that destiny. Which my professor strongly believed was punishable by Hell. Because for someone to influence someone’s fate is playing God. Which, in turn, if you follow Christianity. The ultimate sin is that there is only one God. And just because you don’t worship another God is equivalent to that specific crime. As in that act, you’re engaging in various sins that become a continuous pattern of harmful and toxic behaviors. Because of one thing that is we many of us refuse to do, resolve the issues that make us do these evil things. Which after the lines are crossed, and this is pointed out, it becomes a rationalized idealism. “That God is forgiving.” It is when nothing changes. We continue to do this over and over and for many people. Till the day we die.

We all are afraid of being judged and made out to be a villain, which we all are someone’s villain at one point in time. But the thing is that we worry too much about how people perceive us because one thing that is our downfall as human nature instills us with a primal instinct of needing companionship. But the problem with this is that the camaraderie we surround ourselves with tends to do the same things and, in many cases, worst. That pesky fear of resolving our past traumas becomes the underlying issue that condemns us to Hell. Which of course, our professor also said that “denial” and “resentment” would follow after the class. But the great thing is that in thinking of ourselves, “we all can redeem ourselves,” and it is never too late. But the more that we follow social norms, we dig our hole deeper and deeper. An interaction I had with someone as she said, “God is punishing us,” was something that I disagreed with. When she asked, “why?” I explained to her what I am saying to you now in a much more condensed explanation. We are judgmental creatures by habit. The consequence of human nature is that it makes us creatures of habit. We become complacent about having any desire to make a change in our lives. We settle and immediately give up, continuing the sinful behaviors that never change.

Because the truth is, it’s easier to settle. Lying to ourselves that we will be okay with the consequences in the end, but when those consequences come. We begin singing a different song, avoiding accountability and lying, all for the sake of not being judged. But in the end, if you believe in a Higher Power. You know that you can’t lie. Which in turn, is why I think that atheism came into existence. But the one thing that I find fascinating in the psychological aspect of atheism is that many of these people gave up and turned their backs on spirituality. But the truth is I don’t feel that they gave up on spirituality. I think they gave up on hope for humankind. Many of these individuals have experienced many hardships in the past for the conversations I have had with various people who don’t believe. Which can you blame them for the things that occur in the world? You have people in high places engaging in shitty behavior because they can get away with it. Or so they think. The one thing that I learned about accountability is that they will eventually pay the price, which is wanting to seek revenge, another sin. Have we wanting to see them suffer, which taking pleasure in someone’s pain is gluttonous in you think about it. But in the end, we have to be careful on the fine line we walk.

Because in that person’s rebuttal, “Why are bad things happening in the world” and “God has abandoned us and punishing us” had me say one thing. “God isn’t punishing us. He/she/they are holding humans accountable.” Because if you refer back to the story of “Adam and Eve.” We are still eating from the forbidden fruit, which is in our modern time. It becomes our act of “turning our heads to our morals. All for the sake of being accepted and liked. Along with following the acts of doing shady things. To get a quick step ahead in life. These days another bite from the forbidden fruit is “losing a sense of empathy for others” and “only being concerned when it personally affects us.

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Published by Frieda Lopez at Frieda the Writer

Frieda López is the writer for Journey of an Unraveled Road who was born and raised in San Antonio, TX. Through her professional career in Customer Relations and Retail Management, she has utilized her experience and interactions with the behavioral patterns, which was used to start her personal journey with Journey of A Unraveled Road as her debut novel. She has completed philosophy, psychology, and theology courses at San Antonio College as well as creative writing courses. Frieda López has been a lifelong writer since 2nd grade. A survivor of childhood trauma, childhood abuse, and domestic violence, she wrote this piece, which started this book as her personal journey; works from home in San Antonio, TX.

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