So many of us in this modern-day word say a similarity that we all go through pain, whether it be emotional pain. Physical pain. We all share a similar feeling of discomfort, whether it be in our world. In a relationship. Or from ourselves. The problem is a universal feeling that we all can understand. One of the things I neglected to see in this journey is the pain we all have as the determining factor was that I was too busy to worry about my pain. This is why I had an overwhelming feeling to desire change within myself and the things I failed to control, with the hope that, if I get out of this alive. I would serve as an inspiration to people in a more significant spectrum. But for now, serving as inspiration around me was good enough. As the truth of the matter is, I never saw myself as an inspiration and told this in my small world. Well, this was a massive milestone for me.
Under the circumstances, that has been a tragic life. I have no remorse. I have no regret. And to be honest, I wouldn’t change the events that happen as stoicism became one of the things that I embraced in this journey. It made me stronger than I could ever become. As one of the characteristics I have gained in this journey is that no matter how dark it is, I will give it all I got. And even at the most significant loss. I can still see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Where being a victim is something that I refuse to result in my times of most apparent desperation. That life may be hard for a short time. And that pain may subside. But Like everybody wound we get, it’s only temporary, which made me realize one important thing about the one thing we all avoid, which is emotional pain. But like physical pain, emotional is meant to be temporary as well. In the eye of the storm, we feel helpless many times as everything is already crumbling down.
With more trouble coming when we are down and out. But through that storm, I learned after the second round of adversity was that I also knew how to become the perfect storm as well. Which at the end of the day, we sometimes need to have everything taken away from us. Like things, we surround ourselves with the past that we refuse to leave behind. But when you rebuilt, you have to rebuild the life you truly want, where the act of rebuilding is a quality of strength that when nurtured. It can make you into an unstoppable force, with the option of being sunshine or even a perfect storm.
Remembering those times when I felt the most helpless, I think to myself something. “What the hell was I afraid of” as being forced into this journey made me realize it was easier than I made it seem. As another thing we do through conditioning is “complicating” things. Even if it’s an easy way out, as in the moment of conditioning, we get sucked into life. With the things that we want more of. Which turns into self-gratifying a more significant issue of those issues that we refuse to resolve. As the truth is, self-gratification is instant. But the pain remains constant. I was just seeking more and more things to rid of the problem, which I did pre-journey. Where the manipulation of flaunting the worldly things they attain, the statuses they earned are all gratifying a much bigger problem. Where even me, being an “it’s never going to happen,” made me realize that “You never say never. Because never always happens.”
Visuals I realize the things that become the manipulation in emotional slavery. As seeing things that people have, we desire the same way. But one of the things that I heard in a podcast in the BBC podcast “Hidden Brain” is that selling a lifestyle is what “American Culture” is all about these days, where people stage these glamorous lifestyles with the power of Photoshop and being able to put a location anywhere of your choice. Which it makes it easy to convince anyone you’re living an extraordinary life of traveling and luxury. By why perceive this, to begin with as the only one that you set up for failure is yourself as the typical effect is that you get labeled for being fake, which end up having your most significant fears coming back to haunt you in the end. Where the cause of your effect. Is inducing your traumatic event to occur in your life.
In the end, I learned one thing that was very vital in this journey. That things are only temporary, which becomes a personal choice of whether you want the pain to be temporary or permanent in the end. Which living in the past becomes induced. As the one thing that I realized was that I needed to let go. And in the face of injustice. I had to fight back for the injustice that was occurred in my previous life. As I wasn’t self-preserving the identity, I made for myself. I was self-preserving the true essence of who I was. Without the fear of judgment of others, what people thought of me, how people saw me as, or what they tried to demonize for the person they assumed I became. As this was all the things had us all in emotional slavery. Where if you think about it. The spending on the things all for the sake of “Keeping up With the Jones” becomes our act of “Keeping up with the Kardashians, instead of keeping up with the bills.” Which if you see the movie that is also called “Keeping Up With The Jones,” it will paint the picture of what society has indeed become.
Viewing this movie once again during my time of adversity helped me realize what I was doing. And why it was vital for change. Which my book was intended to be a guide on how to fight through the things we don’t see at the time. Which truth is, I felt that was written prematurely as people weren’t ready to face the truth. But then COVID came, which I thought, “Maybe this is it.” As the injustice and the unfairness of Systematics was worldwide and happening right in front of our own eyes. But then Trump filled people’s minds with the idealism that “Things would disappear like a miracle on Easter Sunday.” Which many people took this literal. Not only through the pandemic, but in their everyday life. But they were already coming to a year since COVID has hit. And things just seem to get worst. The pandemic spreads due to needing social interaction because we got conditioned to using the size of social circles to gain value. When we can’t “Keep Up With the Jones.'” Which the harsh reality is, when shit hits the fan for us, we are left to fend for ourselves. Just how COVID showed us all.
Each one of us has a purpose. And each one of us deserves a fair chance to survive. Until we genuinely get this opportunity, we must take refuge from those living through hard times and still show gratitude for the things they have, as these are the people who will keep it real—taking accountability for the things they do. As well as show positive behavior patterns consistently. Know that we are not perfect, letting them show us what they are capable of. They might not have the things we materialistically desire, but they have one thing that we look at falsely: power. As power is deemed the influence, we have on others, which comes from the fear of not being accepted. Because of those with real power, no matter how dark it is for the majority. Will selflessly rise to not only fight injustice. But do one thing we all can use at this time. Instill hope.