The Resentment Developing In Human Nature

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For about a month already, I have been resenting the whole self-help venture.  I started with self-help because I didn’t think fiction writing was something I was good at.  But critics believe otherwise.   Which is the venture I am taking moving forward.  At first, I was hopeful that I had this illusion that people didn’t know how to find happiness as writing this novel post-pandemic.   And that may be giving them the tools to help them find peace in themselves to make this path easier.  With the world full of people who bully, belittle, retaliate, and manipulate, maybe the only missing factor that people needed was that path on how to get there.  Boy was, I wrong.

            When COVID became a pandemic, they began to notice people become more and more selfish. Don’t get me wrong, there was a lot of good that was happening, but Tik-Tok proved to be a platform where those who recorded these good deeds were a way of getting the attention they always desired, where consistency was never a thing that they did.  Because as soon as they ended up getting the popularity that they never had, they stopped.  Which truth is consistency is something that I feel human nature lacks in this age?  As the truth of the matter is that we live in a take but not give society.  The entitled and the insecure rule the world to bandwagon their misery and the bitterness they feel about the world. They were instilling the fears that they have so they don’t feel alone in the world.

            What made me gain this idealism?  I have to say it started with idealism because the happiness that I had was not genuine. The common question was, “Why aren’t you rich and living lavishly?” This was the first indication that people associate happiness with money and worldly gain.  But for me, I was genuinely happy because I could confront those without fear, the people who belittled, disrespected me intentionally, and attempted to use empty intimidation (especially men threatening to hurt me physically) and make them run like the cowards that they are.  Because the thing that I realized post journey is that people like living a lie.  As this was a safe place to weed out the potential dangers that their fears made them feel. I’ve noticed some of these ordinary things was “portraying they were financially set” when they were starving or barely making it, “Being in a happy relationship,” when they were in a toxic and abusive one. “Living the life they want,” looking for quick rich schemes to gain more wealth while behind clothes doors using chemical dependency.  To contain these emotional insecurities, “Getting fit saying it’s for health,” when they do it to get attention, or “Saying they are good people,” when their whole life was spent manipulating others and lying about the effects that occurred in their cause.  But this is not what was my breaking point.  The truth is I didn’t give up on people because of this.  I think this started when people those people began inflicting others with the same traumas they endured.

            One of the everyday things that I have identified in this journey is that people will tell you what you want to hear to humor you, so they don’t hurt your feelings.  You can’t convince someone that it’s their own choice, and you can care less if they take your advice or not.  But they intentionally lie to your face making others think there is something wrong with you or tying to yourself.  Which that moment those actions bite them in the ass, they end up coming back using the victimhood to gain that help you offered.  Repeating the—repeating  Which at first I thought it was because they did it. After all, they felt that because they are taking advantage.  But after a year of doing this, I realize one thing, they do it because they don’t want help.  Because it’s not the help, they want.  Which is, in turn, becomes an act of selfishness. As they don’t want to get out, they want to gain control of the situation as one common comment that is consistent in this journey is “How do I convince them,” which in turn reveals. They don’t want to become a better version of themselves.  They want the information to manipulate someone.  Because in the world we live in, if people don’t get what they want,  is reason to give someone a bad review or make them look like you’re doing bad business.

            A Twisted Sister Short Story has developed into a novel with a sponsor.  As the idealism of vigilante tactics is one I never thought was marketable.  What inspiration came from the attempt of “The Great Reset,” that attempted to take place in the 1700s when selfishness became more apparent, and self-gratification in that selfishness made the bandwagon a thing, which is more common today.  Not because it’s a new thing, but because this is a behavior that gets masked in today’s society to have those in power get what they want.  This is why Dark Psychology became a marketable genre in Self-Help as “How to persuade People” is a standard Google search that in the end is a form of Psychological Manipulation.  In a world where everyone loses hope and when doing everything right, it turns into an act of taking control by force, another thing I noticed.  But what if someone who saw this began to attempt to clean the world by force.  Cleansing the world of those who have become addicted to getting control by force all in the sake of self-gratify and oppress the feeling of insecurity by hurting others intentionally, which is the undertone of Twisted Sister.  The consequences of these actions become a dark fate of riding the world of these evils masked by righteousness. With the motive of “People aren’t meant to be saved.” Because people don’t change in greed. They just get more manipulative. We will explore that in the novel, I will be releasing late 2021.

Published by Frieda Lopez at Frieda the Writer

Frieda López is the writer for Journey of an Unraveled Road who was born and raised in San Antonio, TX. Through her professional career in Customer Relations and Retail Management, she has utilized her experience and interactions with the behavioral patterns, which was used to start her personal journey with Journey of A Unraveled Road as her debut novel. She has completed philosophy, psychology, and theology courses at San Antonio College as well as creative writing courses. Frieda López has been a lifelong writer since 2nd grade. A survivor of childhood trauma, childhood abuse, and domestic violence, she wrote this piece, which started this book as her personal journey; works from home in San Antonio, TX.

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