When the news hit that the now identified COVID-19 and as a pandemic in Wuhan, was in social responsibility, what hospitals began to prepare for. A potentially pandemic that would hit the United States. Which shortly after happened at the beginning of March. About 70% of the staff ended up being skeptical that it would ever turn into something so tragic. Regardless of the pushback, the preparations did not stop. While America was getting quarantine, the hospitals were getting ready for the busiest and saddest moments of their lives. Where the combination of being confronted with a deadly virus, along with the unknown certainty the virus would bring forward, along with the fate of some of the patients, were about to endure later on throughout the months. Would cause any person to gain emotional trauma from the things that were about to play out.
The Unknown That Would Be COVID-19
One of the main fears that most of these nurses faced during their duties in the COVID-19 unit was the fear of contracting an incurable virus. Each case would present to show long-term complications before the symptoms went public. As the research of what the virus was capable of doing was unfolding in every other COVID case that was pretended. As permanent disabilities were the first onset symptoms that many of the nurses saw immediately. Not knowing the cause was, doctors assumed it was due to the pre-existing conditions that doctors concluded resulted from the virus. Many cases where patients were in a moment of hysteria couldn’t decipher whether the hysteria was a condition onset by the pre-existing depression, anxiety, and a state of memory fog; it would later be determined that these are some of the symptoms that COVID-19 brings on. As headaches were one of the symptoms reported a month after the quarantine was enforced. Where according to the Advisory Board at Advisory.com, turned out that a state of dementia was one of the systems (https://www.advisory.com/daily-briefing/2020/10/16/covid-brain). While one of the apparent methods that the virus showed to have destroyed the lungs. Being a simple respiratory illness was quickly eliminated as soon as many reports were starting to indicate quickly when the virus was infecting people worldwide. Radiology images would begin to show that it would scare the lung tissue. Which COVID-19, later on, would start showing that it affected other parts of the body as a keyword in this virus was that it was ever “evolving.”
Nurses and many of the COVID-19 staff had one common way to cope with the fate of many of the patients. Hide in a room and cry alone, so no one would see as many of these nurses were belittled and teased for not being brave. In many hospitals, the protocol began to ask techs to be part of the qCOVID units early on as nurses refused to set foot in a COVID room if they can avoid it at all costs. Which many of the techs started to play nurses and still play nurses to this very day. At the beginning of the unknown virus and the news that COVID-19 was prone more to those with existing conditions had staff members scared to death. With one consistent reoccurring thought, “Is the day that I am going to catch and die?” Which many of the leadership worked techs and nurses the hardest, giving them a hard time about using PPE’s that many of them would bring in. As one of the requests that unethical COVID trauma areas would lack is empathy on the fears these staff members all vocalized about. Where demanding a doctor’s note and not giving them adequate time to be able to obtain one. As most of the patients were working 12 -18-hour shifts as many other workers avoided the COVID-19 assignments to protect them from a virus that no had no clue about.
Compassionate Workers Are The Real Hero’s
In a hostile work environment, you would think that one’s work integrity would go down. Especially in those COVID units with no remorse for patients, some staff members cared about their well-being before the patient. Which, in my experience, is the cause for work morale to go down. Some of the nurses, no doubt lost motivation, but like the rest of the nurses and techs that were working the COVID units, ended up getting more motivation to push harder and deal with their emotional inflictions in silence for the sake of the livelihood of the sick patients. Where many following “amazing doctors” who always went above and beyond for a patient and learned how to “advocate” and be the voice of the patient was the reason why they pushed through the turmoil and the grief that many of those staff members faced in the light of a “horrible boss.” Which began to bring forward a new kind of trauma, losing a patient regardless if there was something that could be done. Which many of them began to get numb when the doctors and the administration would refuse to save a life, regardless if there was a chance. Many nurses questioned the integrity of that decision and retaliated against that with other acts to have the staff members process themselves out. While others immediately got terminated. As one of the questions that these staff members would ask was, “Why aren’t we doing everything we can if the government covers treatment?” Which the advice these nurses have for the general question is this:
- An advocate who is vocal in addition to multiple advocates.
- Question everything in regards to Covid treatments and never assume the doctor has your best interest at hand. Question everything in regards to Covid treatments and never assume the doctor has your best interest at hand.
- If you’re not sure of something, ask questions always.
- Ask about the treatments the government covers in advance.
In many cases, the nurses would have a breaking point as one thing, but they had to experience is that they had to deal with Covid in and out of the workplace. Which being out of the workplace and coming to terms with a death or two but the experience in their shift, would upset them the most as the numbers reported on the media was never correct. Having them ask themselves, “I just lost a patient on my shift, and numbers are not being updated. Why?”
COVID RELEIF FUNDING
One of the many things that have yet to be presented is covid pending. As many of the local nurses still have yet to receive covid Pedro. Which another unsettling fact that many of these nurses feast was that patients at work are also getting the full treatment that this funding was meant to serve. Or many of the traveling nurses were the only ones that got this relief, but shortly were stripped from hotel expenses of the many things that have yet to be presented is covid pending. As many of the local nurses still have yet to receive COVID pay. Which another unsettling fact that many of these nurses feast was that patients at work were also getting the full treatment that this funding was meant to serve. Or many of the traveling nurses were the only ones that got this relief, but shortly were stripped from hotel expenses. That’s safeguarded the safety of these staff member’s families. Where last month, local nurses and staff members were also stripped from this funding. Leaving an unsettling feeling that the hospitals began to have no consideration of the staff member’s family’s livelihood.
Many patients also went without proper treatment steps, as many of them were left to die. Which in many cases seen the potential and procedure that could’ve been taken by hospitals and doctors were neglected. They had some of these doctors determine why the patient wouldn’t live—many of these nurses and tax or afraid to speak up as her livelihood was put at stake. And with the high rates of unemployment starting to increase more and more, couldn’t afford to walk away without having a plan, which many have done. As for many of these patients, nurses have become their caretakers. Many of them being home health care providers to continue lifting the spirits of those patients now disabled due to Covid. At the same time, others were just leaving the industry entirely. As a consensus of many of the staff members has said, “agreed” is what is keeping both patients and staff members afloat. which my next one green question is “where is this money going to?”
THE BRAVERY OF MEDICAL TECHS
As soon as COVID-19 began affecting cities worldwide and locally, it wasn’t even three weeks within the pandemic that techs were called into duty. What once was the responsibility of nurses became the responsibility of techs. To which one point, nurses were made to clean the bodies of the dead. Which now is the responsibility of the tech. Which consisted of leaving the dead body out for an hour. Taking out all of the equipment, including needles from the dead body, and going it to settle for an hour. With the idealism of the body releasing the active virus that is Covid. The sanitation of the room was very questionable, including the reused PPE’sWhich consisted of leaving the dead body out for an hour. Taking out all of the equipment, including needles from the dead body, and going it to settle for an hour. With the idealism of the body releasing the active virus that is Covid. The sanitation of the room was very questionable, including the reused PPE’s that techs couldn’t change unless they were soiled, which left many sick patients with the ability to contract any other lingering viruses such as MRSA and other contagious viruses. Not knowing if the virus was ultimately out of the room would have the less fortunate patients before’s to reside in that room in some hospitals. Which systematics began to her it’s ugly head as staff began to see.
One of the most tearjerking accounts that one of the nurses shared with me was that they were not allowed to be with a lonely patient in the final moments of life. When told that some of these patients were dying, many of those patients seek comfort from those caring staff members, mostly the text, as many of them begin to write Bible verses to give comfort from a distance for that dying patient. And a few accounts when some of the staff members were at their final straw. Knowing that it was deemed for termination, I stayed in the room to the last patient’s breath. For many of those who left behind and had to work to make a living would volunteer to clean the dead bodies so they could give their final words to the patient already dead. Many of them continue to get ridiculed and shamed for doing selfless acts such as this, which many of them reached burn out sooner than other nurses, and then only it was physically stressful. It became emotionally stressful, as well, which was when I couldn’t hold tears back. Putting myself in a dying patient’s shoes, that would’ve been the grace I would hope to get if I ever got COVID.
GRIEF STRICKEN TO PATIENTS
The patients are the ones that suffer the most when it comes to Covid contractions. As the ugly truth of the matter is, it’s a 50-50 chance of getting the proper care based on number one the staff and number to the facility that you get admitted to. Which is determined by the supervising doctor, your caseworker, and or the administration, which is a hospital, your demographic has a lot to do with the care that you get as much of the jargon that is used, which consists of medical terminology that is utilized. Confusing those who are unaware of the treatments and the symptoms. We’re many of the nurses and staff indicate that it’s done on purpose to confuse the patient. It is also used to have a patient agreed to give up on the battle with Covid depending on who your care provider is. However, it’s only 30% of the recovery cases that end up having ongoing symptoms. It’s about 70% of those that have a disability as a constant symptom. In many cases, most of the recovered cases either develop speech in pediment or, in the worst-case scenario, suffer signs that a stroke patient would have.
One of the most disturbing things about the situation is that most patients are not informed that the government pays for their care. They were leaving many of those patients with minimal treatment sent home to recover without proper care. About 65% of them end up being deceased, while 35% end up having significant complications. That leads to a paralysis of some sort. Many of these nurses and staff members have voluntarily left the medical industry. The most disturbing thing about the situation is that most patients are not informed that the government pays for their care. Leaving many of those patients with a minimal treatment which are sent home to recover without proper care. Due to the politics that are ever so dictating some of the unfairness that happens to these patients. Which is why it’s crucial to have multiple advocates if you’re contracted with Covid. When he wrote the book “journey of unraveled Road.” As a book was written pre-Covid and published in the midst of Covid I began to see you very quickly how Systematics played. This is why I left my residency when I was studying to be an oncologist almost graduating to be a doctor. Because the truth of the matter is systematics is a real thing that happens. And the only ones that are affected are the people that I grew up with. Which is why I wrote this blog. And why I wrote it to help these nurses and staff members deal with the emotional trauma that they experienced in this journey.
I understand where the burnout comes from because you can only tell so much to people to warn them as many people assume that you’re overreacting and being more paranoid than you are. This is a way that many have learned how to cope with trauma. Not admitting that they happen means that it doesn’t exist. But at the end of the day, not being informed. And not knowing what’s going on just sets you up for failure or impeccable doom in the case of Covid. Writing the blog makes me truly realize that you can’t save everyone, as not everyone is meant to be saved. You can only do so much to inform people, but at the end of the day, it’s the stereotype that they have of you that will dictate their ultimate decision. Because once again, me being a blogger and having the ability to record and document everything that happens if I were ever to get contracted with Covid. Is my saving grace. And in the worst-case scenario, when undermined by that medical staff. I have a way to rebuild an unjustifiable and cruel existence that happens in the state of our Covid era. But the unfortunate thing is that no one has the same luxury as I do. Not everyone can document in real-time what happens to them when they are in the hands of an unethical Covid treatment facility. In the end, it’s up to you to determine what you want to believe it’s true. I did my part. I am not here to convince anybody otherwise. Like I always say, “do you.” But maybe if you’re ever stuck in that situation, you are in the face of unethical treatment. And contracted with Covid. Maybe one day, if not in the Covid era, this blog may save your life.
This is a hot topic, and hospital staff jeopardizes their job when they are currently in those positions. It’s hard to get more stories. But at the end of the day, it’s good to know that you have someone on your side. They want to make a difference but help those in the field deal with the traumatic emotional experiences they gained in this experience; Post-Covid, may bring up more stories of the ugly truth of what’s going on currently in those units, without judgment and with the hell out of empathy. I am more than happy to help those and emotional trauma working in the industry to sort through it. At the end of the day, we are in this together.
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