The Good and Bad Days In Systematics

I would be lying to you if I said, sometimes I feel like “what’s the point fighting systematics” on days that today’s bring trying to just make it. Where Instacart, Shipt, Uber, and Lyft don’t pan out where working both of them for 18 hours only malts you 5.50 an hour and having 2 handicapped elderly you care for and making a means for yourself just to try to fight to get healthy, it seems like either the mold infection that doesn’t seem to stop is going kill me or COVID is going to eventually get me, is the sign that maybe there isn’t any hope. But why would anyone care either way, right? I mean that’s just it, too many of us are in the same life boat waiting for a big break to just make it above water. But that’s the beauty of blogging. You can share your story for the whole world to see. You can record the things that you experience each day and make a point that people hopefully might relate to. Because the truth is since COVID-19, so many of us are trying to make it. Some with a better chance that good health brings, some genetically programmed to have bad health, mine genetically use to chronic allergies I’ve suffered with, but more so forced to suffer with by “people who knew better” starting with the apartment complex who purposely while in the hospital went into my apartment without legal notice and the retaliation that Sprint went forward with in light of a workers Comp issue that just got worst by a apartment management company that just wanted to get out of doing that right thing.

Modern technology has the capability of so many amazing things, which is why it’s the thing that helps gain justice back. Where management first comes to gain entrance and then just coincidently ends up trying to cover up evidence just in case this threat that would cost them billions is a way they attempt to cover it up. Which maybe if I didn’t follow the TAA advise of sending a email that on 7/08/19 didn’t get a response, was the reason why this retaliation from a complex that not only had complaints about mold, that mold was also found around the complex, but was rumored to be part of a Hurricane Relief Fraud that’s been the speculation that Houston, TX is aware about that also was a potential death of a child who also by neighbors was the same act they did to get rid of the problem which due to one of the relatives being a immigrant had the same thing done to her.

We all find comfort in “as long as I don’t provoke someone” is what exempts people from thinking it could never happen to them. Truth is things end up being the cause of threat and retaliation when a minor threat that is taken lightly when it becomes a financial or physical disadvantage that can effect others. COVID is one of those things that unfolded right before are eyes. Where a vaccine or a cure wasn’t an immediate action, even when it hit the USA until it started affecting those who thought never would hit. As conspiracy on the vaccine was a ploy to engage population control. Which if you think about it, why would that be true? Truth is the stereotype as to why those who choose not to take vaccines jeopardize their children as what also came to light was the dangers and deaths that affected these children and which was cause for many pandemics within a community.

One thing that many disagree with when the Obama’s were in office was the outlook that was radical socialism. Ironically enough many of those same individuals neglected the reality that is their institutional demographic. It wasn’t about sides, it was about giving a fair fighting chance for everyone. Mind you things happened on their watch but it was a cause by those extremist point of views. They didn’t cause riots as neither did Trump. But one thing that they also didn’t do is gaslight. The expectations were crystal clear. And I still don’t have anything against Trump, I just wish for once he would stop making excuses and stop the nonsense that starts the things he has no control. Because instead of disengaging additional attacks and harm, he adds more fuel to the fire by saying something to further escalate the situations always ending in tragedy, like the shooting in El Paso, the mistreatment towards immigrants, the police brutality that affected both pedestrians and police on duty, and the tragedy that currently is COVID, which I can’t be mad at the guy. Truth is he doesn’t have the life experience to know as he has always never had to go hungry for a day. Or had to make a decision whether he needed to pay his rent or make sure his child stayed healthy in illness, or even decide if it was an economically savvy to get a car or take public transportation. It’s not his fault he didn’t have to suffer but it’s his personal choice not to gain a better understanding.

One thing that I will admit is that we have forgotten how to be compassionate during this term of Presidency and also gained one bad habit which is entitlement. It once was a stereotype only given to millennials, but it’s something that everyone has acted upon just by assuming where someone’s intentions are whether it’s selfish or selfless, where even the less fortunate feel they deserved more. But when does it end? I refuse to believe never is the answer. As COVID-19 is just the start of something that is worst. One thing I ended up falling into by accident was the pandemics that have been occurring communally in the CDC. Many that haven’t hit national news. One of ironic things is that having a unnamed news personality in my car escaping their reality on a flight to there hometown was that the things happening on covid is not all that is happening as the reports they air are a glimpse of what’s really going on. I have to applaud their courage and looking towards another day as to know there is worst happening says so much more about the people that they are. Because truth is, how could we as regular people live knowing the impeccable doom that is waiting around the corner. That maybe we might not be lucky enough to see another day. That the moment we had a chance to be kind and compassionate is the last regret we have. Because the right thing wasn’t done for our selfish intention instead of doing something that could of redeemed us from the fear we have the most. The fear of ourselves. Which is why we all should count our blessings, open our hearts, and help lift each other’s up. You nene know when it will be your last day to rise up no matter where you are in this life.

Published by Frieda Lopez at Frieda the Writer

Frieda López is the writer for Journey of an Unraveled Road who was born and raised in San Antonio, TX. Through her professional career in Customer Relations and Retail Management, she has utilized her experience and interactions with the behavioral patterns, which was used to start her personal journey with Journey of A Unraveled Road as her debut novel. She has completed philosophy, psychology, and theology courses at San Antonio College as well as creative writing courses. Frieda López has been a lifelong writer since 2nd grade. A survivor of childhood trauma, childhood abuse, and domestic violence, she wrote this piece, which started this book as her personal journey; works from home in San Antonio, TX.

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