The Perception of a Bind Eye – The plague of Emotional Social Disease Called Narcism

There is a lot of things that I realized post journey are distorted views of things. I also am convinced that the reason a blind eye is turned is due our distorted perceptions on what we perceive to be truth that in that attempt to gain a better life. There are too many to count and their are so many ways this can go, but one thing that everyone assumes to be truth is the interminable variables the situations can go in our own view of what success of what success looks to us. In entitlement and border line narcism which characters in narcissist show a distorted value of how they view themselves which is inferior and what they do when the truth is revealed. They know how to manipulate people based on their insecurities and know how to play people perfectly, which normally is associated with drug addicts and people in low income situations that in end results to an absence of gratitude. Another things that is a misperception is self reflection which is confused with the act of living in the past” is the inability to let go of the life and happiness that once was. Rationally speaking, I understand why this is told in that sense. Those who reflect their journey so far say this acknowledging a flaw they have, self control. As when one reflects, in the unresolved emotion of lose and grief of leaving those behind that we couldn’t save, is the deterrent always of what held us back, as those now thinking in good intent as arrogant, selfish, forgetting where we came from. Which makes the community we loved and embrace our enemy as in our moments when we thrived up in the most darkest moments of our lives, lack the want to work for it. As the rise to greatness is never an easy one. Those who can’t see the bigger picture tend to be those who lose hope, as the inability is a can’t due to the hope that in those moments of hardship seem impossible. Those confuse this way of thinking as unrealistic, which becomes a personal bias that comes from the fear of failure that those unsure of themselves, which now is belittling someone’s hope, which is a undetermined variable based on the actions the individual takes to make it their truth in turn results to the undeterminable variable of the characterstics through the journey to their life imagined, due to the inflictions, the biased views of those along the way, the deceptions, the traumas, and even the bullying which all comes from those who shoot’s own unresolved demons, that another distorted act in achieving success is having it together involves not being emotional and seeming like nothing can hurt you. In the bigger scheme of things, has made those who looking down on those who see things different and find hope in the little things, become targets of those insecure, jaded, and bitter people to take things personal as the person they look down on has been underestimated which the undeterminable variables in the act of self interest have a bigger effect on how things play out in the Universe. If you really think about it, those who have admit to not having hope that are quick to get offended when you disagree with them or say something have all shown in the rapport you have had with them and the passive aggressive personal acts they have made, makes me feel that through entitlement and the distorted way we see ourselves, which some of you all regardless of how you have is an act of ungratefulness as some of you all aren’t as pretty or as special. As I want to know people’s stories and the people that I am putting in the book have all one common theme. In the moments where darkest hit and they were told by those around them they would always be in the same situation, usually the friends they gained by chance where they never reveal things about themselves to avoid judgment When someone brags about things they did or the people they rolled with I ask “What have you done that you did by yourself that was credible? Why do you think you’re incredible? Why should I be impressed by you? Which always in these now moments of their own distorted perception and their act to belittle me with the financial gains and the luxury items that they have get told “well good for you, I am happy you attained that. If you need to depend on these things to make you feel important then do you” begin to accuse me of jealousy say you are nobody either and say all this other things that at first where annoying but now comedic tell them this “I am not here trying to get validation by the things that make me important, I don’t need validation or people to make me feel valued” then start telling me why I should just kill myself for my stupid idea then hit them with their own medicine. Some will ignore me, still underestimating that I am not what I say I am and still demanding proof say assertively “if your not helping me help others or making me better” you have no use to be told what I am doing. When one final attempt to bring me down is failed I will tell them this “its obvious your a narcissist. In attempting to make me feel bad, which now I see you as desperate for attention will not phase me or stop me. That’s why your a nobody. My comeup is not based on selfish intent that you assumed based on your crappy character. My comeup helps others come up and gain understanding, a fair chance, and insight on how those I still have empathy for can’t deal with real life as their act to feel inferior is caused by someone who did the same. You haven’t affected me anyway to stop. You have no influence to change your mind. And the only reason why this ugly fat peasant isn’t affected by your ignorance, because while your too busy trying to hurt me, I am using this experience which helps me help people like you that will never admit they need help can have comfort on their own time frame, gain understanding. And while you are insulting me, I only tell you what I observe to rebuttal your insults with the actions. In your codependency in things and people and how not having these things that hurt you when you don’t get has people being your friend out of their convenience.” While you think you’re the coach, you’re really just the player which I am not choosing to be right or wrong. In the attempt to justify why I am wrong I just say “why are you justifying this if your not this as you made it clear I am nothing? Your embarrassing yourself in the nobody by forcing me to hear why your not that person you claim?

There is a lot of things that I realized post journey are distorted views of things. I also am convinced that the reason a blind eye is turned is due our distorted perceptions on what we perceive to be truth that in that attempt to gain a better life. There are too many to count and their are so many ways this can go, but one thing that everyone assumes to be truth is the interminable variables the situations can go in our own view of what success of what success looks to us. In entitlement and border line narcism which characters in narcissist show a distorted value of how they view themselves which is inferior and what they do when the truth is revealed. They know how to manipulate people based on their insecurities and know how to play people perfectly, which normally is associated with drug addicts and people in low income situations that in end results to an absence of gratitude. Another things that is a misperception is self reflection which is confused with the act of living in the past” is the inability to let go of the life and happiness that once was. In the bigger scheme of things, has made those who looking down on those who see things different and find hope in the little things, become targets of those insecure, jaded, and bitter people to take things personal as the person they look down on has been underestimated which the undeterminable variables in the act of self interest have a bigger effect on how things play out in the Universe.


Rationally speaking, I understand why this is told in that sense. Those who reflect their journey so far say this acknowledging a flaw they have, self control. As when one reflects, in the unresolved emotion of lose and grief of leaving those behind that we couldn’t save, is the deterrent always of what held us back, as those now thinking in good intent as arrogant, selfish, forgetting where we came from. Which makes the community we loved and embrace our enemy as in our moments when we thrived up in the most darkest moments of our lives, lack the want to work for it. As the rise to greatness is never an easy one. Those who can’t see the bigger picture tend to be those who lose hope, as the inability is a can’t due to the hope that in those moments of hardship seem impossible. Those confuse this way of thinking as unrealistic, which becomes a personal bias that comes from the fear of failure that those unsure of themselves, which now is belittling someone’s hope, which is a undetermined variable based on the actions the individual takes to make it their truth in turn results to the undeterminable variable of the characterstics through the journey to their life imagined, due to the inflictions, the biased views of those along the way, the deceptions, the traumas, and even the bullying which all comes from those who shoot’s own unresolved demons, that another distorted act in achieving success is having it together involves not being emotional and seeming like nothing can hurt you.

If you really think about it, those who have admit to not having hope that are quick to get offended when you disagree with them or say something have all shown in the rapport you have had with them and the passive aggressive personal acts they have made, makes me feel that through entitlement and the distorted way we see ourselves, which some of you all regardless of how you have is an act of ungratefulness as some of you all aren’t as pretty or as special. As I want to know people’s stories and the people that I am putting in the book have all one common theme. In the moments where darkest hit and they were told by those around them they would always be in the same situation, usually the friends they gained by chance where they never reveal things about themselves to avoid judgment When someone brags about things they did or the people they rolled with I ask “What have you done that you did by yourself that was credible? Why do you think you’re incredible? Why should I be impressed by you? Which always in these now moments of their own distorted perception and their act to belittle me with the financial gains and the luxury items that they have get told “well good for you, I am happy you attained that. If you need to depend on these things to make you feel important then do you” begin to accuse me of jealousy say you are nobody either and say all this other things that at first where annoying but now comedic tell them this “I am not here trying to get validation by the things that make me important.

I don’t need validation or people to make me feel valued” then start telling me why I should just kill myself for my stupid idea then hit them with their own medicine. Some will ignore me, still underestimating that I am not what I say I am and still demanding proof say assertively “if your not helping me help others or making me better” you have no use to be told what I am doing. When one final attempt to bring me down is failed I will tell them this “its obvious your a narcissist. In attempting to make me feel bad, which now I see you as desperate for attention will not phase me or stop me. That’s why your a nobody. My comeup is not based on selfish intent that you assumed based on your crappy character. My comeup helps others come up and gain understanding, a fair chance, and insight on how those I still have empathy for can’t deal with real life as their act to feel inferior is caused by someone who did the same. You haven’t affected me anyway to stop. You have no influence to change your mind. And the only reason why this ugly fat peasant isn’t affected by your ignorance, because while your too busy trying to hurt me, I am using this experience which helps me help people like you that will never admit they need help can have comfort on their own time frame, gain understanding. And while you are insulting me, I only tell you what I observe to rebuttal your insults with the actions. In your codependency in things and people and how not having these things that hurt you when you don’t get has people being your friend out of their convenience.” While you think you’re the coach, you’re really just the player which I am not choosing to be right or wrong. In the attempt to justify why I am wrong I just say “why are you justifying this if your not this as you made it clear I am nothing? Your embarrassing yourself in the nobody by forcing me to hear why your not that person you claim?


“In the moment of self preservation and protection from the unknown dangers of others on the things we fight to keep, make us forget where we came from as we refuse to go back to a place that we felt unheard”

One of the most popular things in self help is having gratitude. This is a great concept and helps tremendously those who struggle to see this becomes a difficult task. I use to be the martyr that said, you have to look on the bright side of things which was a lie I told myself when I started losing hope and lost it in a false perception as the things I felt I need became what I wanted. And the things I got where the things I expected as it was always automatically given. It was always about what I felt, what was wrong with me, and burnt the bridges of some blast from the pasts that at one point they tried to point out my negativity as they were truly positive finds us back reflecting and picking the pieces of where they went wrong as those who gave me the chance, who I was the player in an attempt to get coached into positivity became adapted version as one of their flaws they always told me to be receptive to is the ability to adapt as this will put you in situations that in a humbled situation bring you to light to those with power. They were right. Which is why they apologized for the unknown resentment and jealous they gained which made them turn their back when I really needed. As their personal judgment and stereotypes of my perceived persona seemed to be of negative results turned luck, which told them this was the point where I began to find the courage to be comfortable with myself. Where people telling me your perceiving yourself as whatever negative association they claimed, which some came in to be the misery that loves company, which make it a point to everyday take a jab at bringing me down which in their false perception of their true existence and insults and the things they feel is true, that it’s wasted energy because they have no effect on me. And because they are deemed a nobody to society get used by those who think they are better than them and leave them when they have no need. Those who lost hope completely in their efforts of intended pain, regardless of what happens makes me already knowing they are way too deep, pray that they one day see reality for what they are as pre journey when are paths met, already where not liked by their friends and blamed their downfalls on others where their stories never matched and the excuses they swore I believed even when I called bullshit, never believed that I didn’t believe them saying off the wall things to gain creditability like using lineage and importance of their ancestors. Which I was like, why does it matter if your not living that lifestyle now and living in the past of someone else’s comeup? Almost falling into the trap before gaining this logic, I realized that what makes me side in reflecting is that those that chose to be left behind through their downfalls and misperceived realities of what my intention was, that was made to be true by those who wronged them in those other parties who used them for self gratification and selfish intent that they swore they wouldn’t be. Some went to the extreme both in the lost of hope and those who in self inflicted made them get a false inferiority. Regardless of the what took place, I cry because of things we hoped in childhood. Where we called out the sins of the worlds swearing we would never become those people and in biased psyche made me into something I wasn’t out of jealousy and ignorance as they only focused on the things that happened in the past that should of been that they deemed undeserving to me, as the attempt to gain acceptance was the trap that had them believe the same crap that their circles believed where all in fear have one thing they all do, avoid confrontation. As when presented with the simple solution of being firm with your boundaries and the treatment that they expect which selfish intent benefits them and jeopardizes my own wellbeing. As anyone who cares and not in desperation will never ask you to sacrifice your life for theirs. That’s what it is. Because we neglect when people put us in harms way to stop it in it’s tracks and tell them why this was wrong of them. Because when they come back, in our moment of loneliness tolerate them in as we are not comfortable with ourselves. Which results to protect ourselves degrade their situation. Which then evokes entitlement. Which through personal choice, in the entitlement the world shows, where those we look down on deserve the pain, we degrade them for our own self gratification. Because as long as it doesn’t affect us, it shouldn’t matter. And when they prove their worth to the world, we hate them for it due to our own judgments. As everything we thought was underestimated. And now making it, already assume their character as they denied our plea. Where when those chosen to make a difference, now affected by the one person who stopped change for good said fuck it. Which those who don’t affect me should be happy I am not affected. As now a self help that was general has the potential to become a rehabilitation service for those who really want to change will already have the behavioral patterns identified, the visuals of how these behaviors look, and why they never received empathy. In a world where we have little hope is when it’s revealed. They in this downfall lost themselves and became part of the problem.